Monday, 27 July 2015

Untitled

This one is untitled. Or at least it will start off as untitled until maybe when I reach the end I may find a proper name for this entry.

Yes, I think after almost a year of blogging my heart out (and this is the longest I've ever had a blog) I feel that it's time for a transition.

Now don't get me wrong, creative writing and food will still appear. This is the main objective.  I can't help but want to write what I feel through my taste-buds and up onto your screens.

It's hard to know by now, how many people read my blog, and that too, consistently read it as fans or just drop in from time to time.  What I really hope to find out is what you really think of this blog. I know I've dropped off from time to time, but that's only because I want to give a quality post and not just jibber jabber.

Shall I become more exposed? Share myself more? Are you looking for a constructive blog from a practicing chef? Recipes even? Do you want to see what I look like or what my voice sounds like? Or is this all just lost in the onion that is the cyber world. Hidden beneath the layers of pungent and aggressive blogging sites so strong that really I don't know if I could compete!

I want you to tell me.  Really.  What do you want?

I pour my heart out here.  And my soul.  And maybe...just maybe it's time to share the skill.

Shall I cook for you?

Display my guts and glory on the dinner plate, gingerly garnished for your dining pleasures?

So here it goes:
girlwholikes2cook@gmail.com

Do it.

Say it.

Blow my mind!

HAHA! Okay...yes in time, I'm sure I'll hear from you.  I hope so!

I want to give you more.  And I will. 

xo,

A Girl...


Monday, 20 July 2015

Between

The television on and the hum of the tube silent yet hypnotic. A whisper from the iPod, "Our day will come," by Amy Winehouse lingers on my lips. 

A night is about to begin.

A burning sensation. I want to do something bad. Against the rules. Selfish and self indulgent.

It's time to be wicked. 

We all have those moments. Don't lie. You do. When you just want to cave into your deepest craziest desires when no one is around. When no one can interrupt you. When no one can tell you no, that's too much, stop, slow down, no - I mean it!

A moment of being limitless.

Lawless.

A satin and chiffon aqua blue night gown that goes to the floor is my secret companion. She makes me feel pretty even if she doesn't say it. Pristine sheets, crisp and clean. Tightly tucked with mitered corners get tugged and lashed to the side. A bed, unmade.

How rare is it to be alone? Like really alone? Not expecting any calls, and if you do, your phone is silenced or at least plugged in a charger in another room. Curtains are closed and the lights are off in every room but the one you're in. Unless you're me. The kitchen is always expecting a visit from A Girl who Likes to Cook.

I gave myself a pedicure and the soles of my feet tap lightly as I walk across the cold tiles. I flick the switch and pull out a serving tray my mom gave me. It's wooden made of the bark of some exotic tree in the Amazon. I rest a plate in the middle, it has a chip on the edge where my finger naturally glides over. An endearing flaw.

I had made a batch of cookies earlier that day for this main purpose. To take it to another level of dessert stardom. I cracked open the plastic container and it pops and crackles as it releases it's warm perfume of cinnamon and raisins. A healthy attempt at a sweet biscuit, a psych out, another reason to be more sinfully gluten without guilt. Oatmeal raisin cookies, with toasted almonds. Slightly crisp and darker brown around the edges yet chewy with the sticky bite from the golden raisins. Almonds lend a pleasant crunch.

I lay one pretty side down, and reach for the freezer door. A tub of French vanilla ice cream stands idling waiting. The blast of frozen air runs up my arm which triggers a chain reaction of goosebumps as I wiggle the tub from its frozen dungeon.

I really don't have time to dig around for that ice cream scoop, and who would care if I broke the rules? Bad means breaking rules...even culinary ones. So I reach for a soup spoon instead. I dive deep into the icy container and shovel clumsily a hefty helping of creamy, slightly ivory French vanilla and force it face-first onto the cookie. Spread it out? No, I press it down with another oatmeal raisin cookie and lick the circumference making it smooth and level.  I swear, I'm lady like but when no one is watching...heh

I repeat the process again and place my sexy little oatmeal ice cream sandwiches in the freezer to firm up. No one likes mushy cookies...or melted ice cream.

Will this been enough? Enough to satiate my devilish appetite? I think to myself, now just eating a few scoops of ice cream solo as I ponder the next player to be added to the bedtime lineup.  

I walk over to the kitchen table where a display of store-bought delights, from Twinkies to Passion Flakies. Chocolate bars to marshmallows but there stood in the middle as it to raise up out of the stage, into the spotlight on a platform of glass. The main event. Covered in a dome crystal clear, an angel. 

An angel so soft, delicate and light. She could sprout wings and fly away as I lift her cage up and over her head. I glide my knife through her, clipping her wings, I think she was begging me to do it.  I don't lose a crumb. Angels usually keep their feathers and she was no different.

I lay her down on a dinner plate. She needed the space for what I was about to do next. I sweep myself across the kitchen again and find some awkward looking strawberries sitting by a fruit basket.  I quickly hull them and drop them into a mixing bowl. I find a jar of powdered sugar and tip it over dusting the ruby fruit with a mini mountain of sweet snow. A small puff meanders up to my nose and almost provokes a sneeze, but the sensation subsides. I lick my sugary fingers and agree with myself this will be a delight. I begin to do the deed.

I press with a fork, causing the berries to bleed. I puncture the flesh and the crimson red drips and spreads turning the ivory white pink. I crush and prod, aggressively mincing the sweet hearts into a pulp.  Funny how strawberries remind me of hearts. Sometimes you find a heart that's bitter, tough, may be older or picked from life too soon. The ones in need of sweetening.  Sometimes, you'll find a heart that's just at the right moment, one that's perfectly ripe. Ready to be had. Open to possibility.  I pause and sigh. Funny...Strawberries.

I take the slaughtered hearts and pour them over my innocent angel.  The rouge liquid tumbles over her, staining what was once so pure.  I don't mind. I'm going to enjoy this, and it will all be worth the caloric blast to my hips. Happy once again to be in the midst of decadence and no one else.

But no, I need more. A balance.  Two sweets and no savoury? I scramble to squeeze 'whipped cream from a can' all over my heavenly concoction. Like slapping a tacky polyester bow on a Vera Wang custom designed French lace gown, I swirl a cloud of cream on my not-so-pure dessert and set it aside to head back to the pantry.

If you know me at all personally, and by now I feel if you follow a little with my writing, I have a massive sweet tooth. How it hasn't rotted and caused me pain is beyond me and touch wood...it won't bother me for a long time to come. But that doesn't mean I don't appreciate the savoury side of life. I very often in these moments look for comfort in something that no matter how much you start out eating it delicately you end shoveling in your mouth shamelessly!

That weakness is popcorn.  Oh the salty crackle of puffed corn kernels melting in my mouth reminds me of childhood! A time when you can get away with a little careless spills, wiping your greasy fingertips on your jeans or your chin on the back of sleeves. Hmm yes, popcorn feels so guilt-free at times, or so I tell myself.  It's a whole grain, right?

I shimmy a bag of the microwavable kind out of a box at the top of the pantry.  Tippy-toeing as I'm too eager to run back and get a chair to bring me safely to my top-shelf destination. I aggressively unwrap the token white bag from its clear casing and toss it into Chef Mike.  2 minutes and I'm set.

I dress up the Amazonian serving tray with a high-ball glass clinking gently from the ice I dropped inside.  I double shot of rum and top it off with a Pepsi. A hiss and fizzle as the carbonated foam reaches a scary height but manages to keep its composure beneath the rim. 

And soon enough the smell of buttery freshly popped popcorn fills the kitchen and makes me wish I could eat the air.  I breath through my mouth and think edible air! With an index finger and thumb I pull the piping hot bag out of the grips of Chef Mike and pry it open. A buttery steam lashes gently on my face and I soon get excited with anticipation. No time for a bowl. The bag will have to do.

In true restaurant fashion I precariously balance my dirty angel, my 'good for you' sandwiches and bag of popcorn on the jungle tray.  In one hand I hold firmly the concoctions of the evening, and in the other the hem of my turquoise satin gown.  I sway myself up the stairs and around the banister to a room dimly lit and sheets pulled back. The hum of the television still evident as I didn't switch it off when I left the room all those minutes ago.  

I hike up the gown further and climb in. Cushioning myself with fluffy pillows and the remote flipping on a DVD of "The Godfather" (my all-time fave btw) as I settle in. I still hear my iPod whispering in the background, "You're my everything" by Mary J. Blige. 

I press my lips around the icy sandwich as Vito Corleone double kisses Michael and eyes grow wider.  I quickly sop up the melted cream, slurping not to drop a single bit on my satin lover for the night. Since she is the only who sees me in the bare right now. I frantically move on to the next one and Sonny and Clamenza are arguing about Paulie being conveniently unavailable.

The iPod makes a full turn and brings me back to Amy Winehouse. And I begin chomping away at popcorn. The butter richness is a pleasant break from the cinnamon and raisins. Savoury so that it makes my lips smack!  Isolation. Gun shots and the body of Sonny Corleone lays on the pavement by the toll booth, like Swiss cheese. I sink further into bed. I pick the kernels off my dress and devour them without blinking.

Eating in bed may seem a bit silly, maybe a bit of bad form but when you're on your own and you need to really relish a moment, formalities go out the door.  There's an art to it. Choosing the right food for the right purpose, with minimal crumbs or if there's gonna be crumbs, the crumble should be easy enough to fluff off the sheets.  Chewy cookies, not crunchy. Popcorn vs potato chips and cakes are all game!  Cheesecake if you can swing it!

Speaking of cake...

My eyes swell with tears as they always do when I see the scene of Michael and Appelonia, first meeting and falling in love.  I know what the future looks like for them and it's bitter sweet. I then look down at my angel.  A cake light and sweet. No distinct flavour other than the wicked red strawberry mayhem that I splashed all over her.  The mountain of whipped cream now taking a lean to the side. 

Like hot siren red lipstick on porcelain skin, I don't bother using the fork, instead I break into her with my fingers.  Smudging her rouge across the plate, dipping her into the chantilly and place her on my tongue without it brushing my lips.  

Now. This. This is good. This is right. I hike up the sheets to my chest and stare up at the screen.  A car bomb goes off. Appelonia poor girl. And tears roll down my cheek.

A bed...the covers...indulgent wickedness and me.

Between am I. 

xo,

A Girl Who Likes to Cook




Monday, 1 June 2015

Apartment 303

The heat of July in the city, hot breeze and steamy concrete. Toronto, humid and hazy, with bustling people and street cars screeching along.  Beck Taxis in their bright orange and green logos dodge each other in the wall to wall traffic. 

The drive was energetic, full of things to look at, people to make up storied about as they stroll along, and action to be had.  This was prime time for a country girl like me.

July and it's summer. And July is the time for a wedding. 

My cousin was arranged to be married, and the wedding was tomorrow. I, being 8 years old at the time, was more thrilled about the party dress I'd wear the night of the reception than the fact I'd be giving away yet another sister in holy matrimony. There's 24 cousins now, a lot more of us to give away...little did I know back then.

As a sister, no matter the age, it is your duty to be there to watch your sister become a bride and leave your home. Dress her up, douse her fair skin with a mixture of turmeric and coconut oil, help her with her jewelry, shower her with scents like jasmine, sandalwood and rose water. Why? At that age, I didn't really know or thought to ask questions. It was my loving duty to be with her as she stopped being sister and began being wife. It was the excitement of it all that intrigued me.

Wedding time and the journey begins for my cousin, my sister. And the fun begins for me.

A brick path way with a raised wooden edge meanders to the lobby door.  I never liked the building; I found it rough and haphazard.  

The smell of the grass was strong and mineral like, coupled with an old stale appearance.  I dare not touch the lawn. I titter one foot in front of the other balancing on the wooden planks all the way up to the door. A challenge to not touch the grass or the zig-zag bricks I had mastered over the years of visiting Ajee, my paternal grandmother.

I could always tell who was already there at Ajee’s as I recognized the cars of my aunts and uncles in the small parking lot. Knowing that I would have company to play with was always a plus. Brother dearest, tiny fellow at the time with his chubby knees and round China doll face was lifted and carried by mom and dad fetched large grocery bags with vegetables. 

The lobby door had glass windows that were always cracked and broken.  Sometimes the door was permanently unlocked with no need to press the buzzer number.  This time the glass was gone so I stooped down and went through the window pane. A scolding came afterwards from mom.

I look down at my Kermit the Frog digital watch and it says it’s still morning. The day is getting started. 

Running to jam the button to call the elevator. Now I know we are in for fun, the excitement began to build in my belly!  Dad, however, bypasses the elevator and takes the stairs. Later it was discovered he was claustrophobic and hated that elevator in particular.

Apartment 303, so press 3 – I say to myself.

Ding! The door opens and I turn to my left.  Grey, red and black carpet and off-white walls dotted with bright orange doors. A familiar hallway.  The smell of browning comes floating my way.  The emergency exit door at the end of the hall opens and Dad steps out.  Apartment 303’s door swings open…

“Eh man! You know we waitin’ on dis pumpkin all morning!?” my uncle teases yet scolds my father for being behind schedule while taking the bags from my dad’s hands.

Dad smiles a big toothy grin and laughs, “Come, let’s cook!” he says hugging his much older brother.

Mom struggles to hold my brother, and decides to set him down to use his own sausage-like legs. He runs frantically up to the door, bursting past me to get into apartment 303.  As he whirls by, I pick up the pace and as I approach the smell becomes more intense. By the time I get through the door and pull my shoes off, the scent bowls me over!

Chaos!

Voices yelling across the room, arms stretched out passing shiny stainless steel bowls from one end of the apartment to another.  The floor covered in white sheets and ladies sit in circles peeling the pumpkin pieces my father just brought in.  Another group, men this time, peeled potatoes and kur-plunked them into a blue plastic bucket full of water.

Ajee and her friends roll puris - a deep fried flat bread, and fling them like Frisbees on a folded white sheet, as my dad’s brother, with his specks of sweat beading off his forehead, pick up the puris and lay them in the oil. Dad’s sister sits on a stool slowly pushing them around with a wooden paddle. As they become golden she lifts them out as a few more ladies dab the excess oil off and lay them in the trade marked foil trays.

The whistle of a pressure cooker goes off and the hiss of oil tempering jeera (cumin in Hindi) and garlic sizzles. The air is filled with the robust smell of spices and smoke. Garam Masala mist.

My girl cousins grab my hand and pull me through the kitchen.  We sit around the table, little plastic sandwich bags and a disposable foil tray of warm Prasad (blessed offerings) sits on one end. Beside this tray is another tray little white hockey pucks of pedha with thumb prints in the middle. Crunchy sugar coated meethai - like a sugar encrusted fritter, curled like gnarled branches of a tree in the final tray.

Aunty lines the 3 of us girls up a chair for each.  A sweet assembly line we were. Each of us given the task to put together Prasad parcels for our cousin’s wedding.  This was important, she noted. It will be blessed by the priest and given to every guest who comes to the wedding. Each guest will leave with something blessed by God and with only sweet words to say about the newly wed couple.  Romantic, right?

Too young to fry puries, peel vegetables or chop spinach.  But too old to sit by and do nothing.  So this was our something.

“You will put so-much in the bag,” she explained to me, showing me a sample size.  Plopping it in the plastic baggy and setting it down in front of the next girl to place the pedha, and the last to follow is the girl with the crispy meethai.

I stuck my fingers into the warm doughy mass and pinched off a lump.  The smell of cardamom and butter stuck to my hands.  The oily bundle was rolled and dropped into the sandwich bag and placed beside my sister cousin.

“Taste it! Does it have cherries or raisins?” asked the eldest of us three assembly girls, responsible for the meethai, as she cracked a piece of the fritter with her teeth and chewed ever so loudly.

I give in to the peer pressure and taste the creamy starchy sweet.  The Holy offering melts in my mouth as I chew on the gold raisins left behind.  Its warm texture tastes like butter with a hint of parched caramel and a back-note of vanilla.

“Raisins,” I say, while scrunching my nose in disapproval. “Give me a piece of that, is it good?” I ask.

I reach across and grab a piece of meethai and clamp down with a crack.  I hear the snap of the crunchy sweet resonate through my skull. Hard and crumbly at the same time, I decided I liked it and reached for another sample.

My sister cousin the in the middle also reaches for a piece and the three of us looked at each other with a sign of approval.

Pedha was next as we all went picking through for the bigger ones.  A fudge made of pure milk, sugar and butter, these were special.  Our elder cousin, in her late teens at the time, stirred the next batch of pedha.  Non-stop, her boney arm which had been set on ‘auto-pilot’ swirled that wooden pot spoon round and around.  A perpetual pedha production. A labour of sisterly love. It was her older sister set to marry in the morning.

The sharp sweetness was addictive.  We had been under a spell.  A spell of sweet and sugar.  A Holy Possession.  These weren't chocolates or candies. These were not your Jordan Almonds or white chocolate truffles you give away on the receiving table. Oh these were much more than that. These must be homemade, made with love, and blessed. They were Godly. Everything seemed Godly in Ajee's Apartment number 303. 

We couldn't help ourselves as we cracked into the meethai by the fistful.  The special parceling task was set to the side as we sat and enjoyed the view.

The spitting of hot oil, the bursts of laughter, and the vibrant colours piled up in silvery basins.  

Bright orange pumpkin, shiny verdant green spinach, rich red tomatoes and happy yellow pearls of chickpeas being soaked in a pool of water.

It was like a show full of edible colours. 

Assembly lines. Sweet, crunchy, oily, buttery. Milky, chewy, salty and spicy.

We sit, we dine and we watch on as a wedding feast comes to life, in the Holy Apartment 303.

xoxo,

A Girl Who Likes to Cook, age 8

Wednesday, 20 May 2015

A Date Night

Alone in a house. A fall evening and I've been stood up.

Yes, stood up.

The Captain, the one who never bought curtains for his apartment. The one who smelled of Hugo Boss left me hanging. Bitter? No. Well...okay a little. But also relieved, a little.

Alone in the house an I don't mind at all.

Date night for one ;-)

I peel off the dress I was wearing. I went through the trouble to put on make up too. I'll keep that. I did a good job on it, would be a shame to wash it away. Pulled on my grey yoga pants and a tee. No, a tank top. Hell I'm home, I can wear my prom dress if I wanted to!!

A flashback to my prom. I went with the guy who was voted "Most Likely to Succeed" after high school. I bet HE wouldn't have stood me up! Don't be bitter. Move on.

A violent crack of thunder and the pitter-patter of rain begins. A flash of lightening illuminates the house. I admit, my heart did leap. Thunder and lighting is exciting to me. Something about the world being taken over by itself for a moment and not by anyone else is awe-inspiring. Thunder and lighting can be creepy romantic. Scary and thrilling. 

I hear another sound. A gurgle. My tummy is seeking attention. It too has a mind of its own.

I tip-toe down the stairs and swing around the banister into the kitchen. A flash of lightening flickers through the kitchen window, oooh how lovely and mysterious nature is! 

I turned on the light in the hood of the stove. No need to turn on all the lights and kill the mood. 

I had planned a beautiful menu for that evening. An evening for two. Minus one. So a beautiful menu for one. I had already done my mise en place. Shallots diced, garlic minced, a bottle of Reisling chilling in the fridge. Yes, the wine.  

I mosey over to the china hutch and pull out one of mom's nice wine glasses. You know, the ones for company but not just any company...good company? Ya. Screw it. I'm good company! Cheers to date night!

A glug or two into the glass and plug in my ear buds. iPod, work your magic! The Beatles playlist. A little Twist and Shout on the kitchen tiles should get this party for one rolling.

I turn on the burner and swirl olive oil into the pan and allow it to warm up. I pulled the chicken breast I had marinating from that morning. I laid it in the hot fat and allowed it to sizzle away.  The aroma of woodsy rosemary fills my nose and my mind eats up the air anticipating how wonderful dinner will be.

In another skillet I repeat the process but this time adding shallots. What is it about the pungent smell of onions that evokes hunger? Garlic and mushrooms follow and I push it around with a wooden spoon.  

Arborio rice. Pearls of white grain. I scatter a palm full into the warm pan and swish it around in the infused olive oil. I sip my wine. I look at the glass and and I glance down at the sizzling pan. I tip the wheat coloured Reisling into the pan and the vigorous bubble begins.  I stir again and allow the liquid to absorb.

Risotto gently comes to life on the stove as I enjoy my beverage. The chicken takes her time cooking and growing delicious and brown.

Mmm risotto. It's a therapeutic dish I find. Its a dish that inevitably allows you to think and reflect as you cook it.  Slowly I splash my warm chicken stock over the beads of rice, turning it clockwise, then counterclockwise as it releases itself developing a rice with a lovely creamy consistency.

My mind wonders. What was he doing that was so important that he'd turn down my risotto? I mean, come one...it's risotto! It must be a good reason, I mean he is a Captain. I thought of a loving excuse and carried on swishing and swirling.

I'm Looking Through You, is next on the play list as I pour another glass of wine and simultaneously yank the fridge door out and pull out a wedge of Parmesan cheese.  I gently unwrap it and begin to grate away snowy curls of salty robust cheese. I held the shredded shards in my hand and dust it into a bowl on stand by. The perfume of milky cheese stays on my skin. I don't mind. I'm my date tonight.

The thunder grumbles and the rain pours heavily.  I hear the clinks as the drops smack against the drain pipes. Ting! Ting! Like bells from a dark cloudy heaven. Fresh sweet water trickles down the window pane as the evening turns to night.

My kitty Oreo S's her body around my ankles speaking fluent cat love with her meows and purrs. I look down at her lovingly as she sits staring up at me. She always knew precisely when to be around to keep me company. Like that girlfriend who called you right when you had a nasty fight with your boyfriend to say, "Uh, screw it! Let's get our nails done!" just to keep you distracted from the drama of life. Sweet Oreo.


The plump chicken breast waits on a side plate as I spoon in a generous knob of butter into my elegant dish. 

I watch the butter sigh an awe of relief as it melts and tumbles over and through the nooks and caverns of silky rice.  I gently lift and fold, blending the shiny yellow with the pale white watching the satin risotto come together. And as a final flourish I dusted the grated Parmesan cheese. A sweet perfume steamed up to my face and I breathed in deeply.  Decadent, smooth, just al dente. 

A rainy night alone.

I plated my meal, restaurant style. Slices of succulent chicken fanned delicately over a small mountain of risotto. A garnish? Why not, I do deserve a pretty plate.

I lit a candle and placed it on the coffee table and turned the fire place on. 

I sat on the floor, gently humming "And I love her" and dined.

Claps of thunder.
Flashes of lightening.
Satin white risotto.

Unexpected date night. 

An evening of storm and rain, alone in this house. Stood up. Yoga pants and candle light. Curled eyelashes and red lipstick. Paul and John whispering in my ear. 

A dinner for one.

xo,

The Girl who Likes to Cook






Wednesday, 6 May 2015

If I could...I would

How I would...And I could...if you would...will you let me?

Let's see...

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If I could pour all of you into a pristine glass bowl,
Whisking you off your feet, spoiling you
With sugary sweet and perfume of vanilla
Making you feel a happiness as light as air

I would.

If I could peel away your layers of hurt and pain
Shielding you from hellish oven of life, full of scrutiny and sorrow
Polishing and buffing away the parts of your 
Bruised soul that steal your handsome smile 

I would.

If I could light a flame of love underneath you
Driving you the fiery edge of lust undeniable
Igniting your passion, boiling to your hearts brim with desire
Filling you with inspiration delicious beyond compare

I would.

If I could hold you on an ivory white plate
Like the last slice of something sweet
Treasuring you...

Every crack
Every crumb

The smoothness of your hands on my skin
The cherry blush of your lips
The dusty brown coarseness of your hair 
Slipping through my finger tips

If I could savor every last piece of you...

I would.



xo,

The Girl who Likes to Cook


Wednesday, 29 April 2015

Imagine...if you will

Imagine, if you will, the following...

I dawned shorts that day. Which if you know me, I rarely ever do. I wore my old school tee that says "I Love My Fry Guys," which was a canary yellow with a faded picture of the MacDonald's fry guy characters plastered on the front.

My instinct is to turn on the oven first. Years of classical training tells me I would much rather have the oven wait on me than vice versa.

I yank the freezer door open and a gust of icy air hits my face. I look at the Tetris-like masterpiece that is my frozen foods section. Delicately organized so that if I pull out my tub of French vanilla ice cream I won't get be knocked out by an avalanche of frozen solid whole chickens or a sack of frozen carrots. 

On the door is a shelf where my packet of neatly wrapped phyllo pastry slept. I should have pulled it out sooner but this was an impromptu baking session.

I saunter over to the microwave which I've now knighted as "Chef Mike" (Mike, like short for Microwave...I think it's clever no?) He can zap the hell out of anything you put in him. He can cook or REcook if you don't give him clear instructions. In this case, he was set up to merely thaw my pastry just enough so I can work with it.

20 second intervals. Chef Mike sometimes gets carried away.

I return to the refrigerator, this time to the chill chest, and more specifically, the cheese drawer. Yes, I actually store my cheese in the cheese drawer. 

I then pull out my ricotta (250 g to be exact) and proceed to drain it over a fine sieve. Why? Ricotta has quite a bit of moisture, moisture I didn't need.

Chef Mike beeps at me.  I open him up to find my pastry thawed and ready.  I replace pastry with a small bowl containing butter.  I love the smell of melting butter and prepared myself to once again relish the lofty aroma of that milky, nutty, and dare I say fatty liquefied butter.  I put my electronic sous chef to work once more.

I gently unwrap the papyrus thin leafs of phyllo.  I only need enough to make six. I take out what I need and replace the rest in a ziplocked baggy and back in the fridge. I'll make Salmon Wellingtons this week I said to the inner self, justifying ways to eat more of that crispy buttery pastry.

I take one sheet, lay it on my bench. Opp, uhh! My hair falls in my face. It wasn't a tactful hairstyle, using just a clip to hold my hair back.  I run to the powder room and readjust. I have too much hair on my head, time for a haircut? I quickly call the salon to book an appointment for the following day.  How easily I digress.

Back to my pastry, that I playfully paint the warm liquid gold, slightly salted, over the first sheet. Sugar and spice makes everything nice! I sing to myself as I then scatter a blend of cinnamon and castor sugar over the buttery layer.  My finger tips glisten from the oily shellack and the grainy texture of the sugar. I lick my thumb and then my index and middle fingers together. 

So imagine, if you will: Savoury-sweet. But more sweet than savoury! Rich slightly salted melted butter with a lingering warmth of cinnamon and flash of sweetness at the end. What does it remind you of? Christmas? Thanksgiving? Maybe Snickerdoodles? When's the last time you had a Snickerdoodle? *note to self...make Snickerdoodles*

I finished the layers trying not to lick my fingers between each addition.  Who cares? I'm the only one eating them! Might as well lick the pan you're going to bake them in! I dared myself. No, no...no licking pans or fingers. I frantically wash my hands. Then I washed them again after each layer. A thought of my childhood flashes by, as I remember licking the last Dorrito chip in the bowl before my little brother could get to it. The things kids do. Haha!

I had doctored up cylinders out of tin-foil, 6 in total, to wrap my greasy sheets of cinnamon-sugar around. They held well and sat in military fashion, 2 up 3 across. I like military fashion. I liked the tidiness of it. 

Into the oven my six butter cigars go. I turn my attention to the heart of the matter. The ricotta cream.  

I push down with my finger, the top of the cheese, stark white and fluffy. If clouds had a flavour, I'd hope it tasted like whipped ricotta cheese with vanilla and sugar.  

I plop the billowy puff of ricotta into a bowl and turned it round and round with my rubber spatula. I pull open my baking cupboard and tip-toe to reach my warm spices. You know the ones...

The ones that taste of comfort and joy. Of mulled wine and apple pie. Maybe banana bread or plum pudding. A flashback to my Nanny's Black Cake comes to mind.

But I don't need ALL of these to appear. This is about the creamy unctuousness of that ricotta! So my final choice...freshly grated nutmeg. Less often means more.

Sand paper sounds of the hard husky nutmeg grated over the ricotta floating down like delicious saw dust. The fragrance reminds me of eggnog. Nutmeg has the ability to make the mellowest of flavour profiles become rich and satisfying. Nutmeg = Magic. Not too much, as we decided, less is more.

I turn to the other end of my counter top and see a brown jar that says "SUGAR" on the front. Beside that jar were two other jars that say "COFFEE" and the other "TEA." I feel compelled to make a cuppa (tea) and do so in my favourite teacup. 

Imagine, if you will: A kettle whistles. Water is boiled. On standby is a teabag and 2 lumps of sugar in a small teacup.  Now, pour your just boiled water into that idle cup.  Watch it go from clear to rusty red, then to an almost crimson brown. Clanking your teaspoon in that cyclone of orange pekoe, crushing those sweet lumps, dissolving.  Keep stirring, and while you do, pour that milk (or in my case evaporated milk) in the middle of that typhoon. A pinch of cardamom powder and sip.

But my affair with my sugar tin was not over. I grab a tablespoon and add a scoop into my ricotta. Whipping and folding, adding vanilla then chopped dark chocolate. Have I made too much?  I mean there's only 6 cannolis. I could make more shells if need be. No need to waste such a lovely filling. Then I thought...No, you can't just EAT the rest. Crazy.

I rest my ricotta mash-up in the fridge, and continue to sip my tea.  I peep in the oven, oh! The shells look well tanned.  They lay on a red sil-pat, sizzling away like they've spent the day at the beach, fell asleep and woke up just in time to turn over, and NOT burn. 

I catch a hint of the cinnamon as I open the oven door and I get excited! I do a little half-time performance in my kitchen doing a pirouette on my tip-toes. Socked feet, grey surfer shorts that say "Billabong" on the tush and my beloved fry guys tribute tee.  Super Bowl, eat your heart out! Keep your chili dogs and nachos with Chez-Wiz...I got the cannolis!

I remove my crackly cinnamony vessels of joy out of the oven and allow them to cool.  

Now...the waiting game.  Everyone involved in this operation needs to chill out. Time to check Twitter, Facebook...Twitter again.  Oh Instagram, Facebook. Comment, comment, like, wait no, UNlike...nah Like it anyways.  WhatsApp, change settings, change background. Download app. Uninstall it, because it's the wrong one.  

Wait. Let's decorate these babies! I run back to the kitchen, grab the chocolate and give Chef Mike another assignment. I begin to riffle through my baking cupboard again to find pistachios and spill them frantically across my cutting board.

Slicing through emeralds. My chef's knife rocks back and forth to create a crumble of green gems scattered on my wooden block.  I scoop them into a bowl, my chocolate melted perfectly. Chef Mike to the rescue! 

I dip one end and then the other into the shiny chocolate. 

Imagine, if you will: Velvet chocolate, rippled cocoa ribbons looking for a companion to meet, fall in love with and never let go of. That companion is Her Majesty, the elegant pistachio who sits in a bowl beside him. The soft texture of the warm chocolate collides with chopped jewels of verdant wonder and they join. A holy matrimony indeed.

I fetch my filling and load it into a zip-locked bag.  I snip the corner and begin to pipe the filling into the cooled and bedazzled cylinder. From one end, then the other, the pastries fill up. 

I line them up, once again, in military fashion. This time on a white platter. 

My heart leaps. I feel inspired. I feel happy. 

To the gentleman who inspired the idea and then to write it down, I say many thanks.

Here's hoping your imagination tastes what I write!

With love,

The Girl who Likes to Cook

xo 







Tuesday, 28 April 2015

Georgetown Mornings


The distinctive chime of a bicycle bell. A rap on the door. 
My eyes stare up at the rickety ceiling fan spinning slowly as if to make the room warmer before getting cooler.
Sssss click sssss click.

It turns and whirls in its turquoise glory pushing the cob webs in the corners aside with its less than adequate breeze.

My toes stick to the freshly mopped hard wood floor as I creep to the edge of the kitchen where Nanny, my grandmother, stood.

She swats the fruit flies away from sliced pink guava gleaming on the windowsill.
"Milk man here! Edward, take the change from the table we need 3 bottles for today!" Her raspy voice calls out the window down to the courtyard.

Sweet onions sizzle and a chopped tomato hisses as it hits the skillet.
The tapping of eggs as if they're dancing in a boiling watery bath, 
Doing a jig at the bottom of an aluminium pot.

The smell of bread being toasted over the stove top and the sizzle of butter in a scorching warped frying pan.

She glances in my direction to catch me peaking around the corner, rubbing sleep from my eyes and yawning a gulp of morning air into my lungs. Shy me...my face grows warm and I try to make a mad dash.
But she scoops me up and kisses my face.

"You're the first and that's why you get the most love" my Nanny says as she sits me on counter top.  Her touches of grey hair around her temples fade to black with her neatly tied up-do.  Her frock, navy blue with small pink flowers, feels silky as I thumb the corner of her sleeve.  She cuts slices of cheese and lays them on the china plate next to the saltine crackers slathered with rich butter so yellow it reminds me of Big Bird's feathers.

I wiggle my bottom to the edge and leap hoping my acrobatics would impress her. Not to mention my stunning Care Bear pj's were also quite impressive.

I hear mom stirring in the living room with her sisters. Dad sits at the long cherry wood dining table, flipping through the local newspaper, shaking his head and furrowing his eyebrows.

Nanny misses my dismount and I land with a thud. She turns and I make my escape. My feet grip the sea foam green kitchen tiles as I collide into him.

The smell of Old Spice Aftershave fills my nose and I throw my arms around Nana's burly neck. Once again I'm mid-air in his arms. Swinging me, twirling me as I giggle. A dignified man he was.  Serious yet silly.  His tickles would bring me close to suffocation...death by laughter.

In his pocket he carried a single tiny notebook, wrapped with multi-coloured rubber bands and a pencil. I always wondered what so important in that little book that it needed to be held so tightly with elastics. Next to that was a small comb, in case of a hair emergency.  For a man his size, he dressed to impress. Platinum white hair with a touch of noir slicked in place strand by strand. Important business for an important man.

Tea simmers away and boiled eggs are peeled. The kitchen overflows with the scent of something growing crispy and golden. I can smell how deliciously brown its becoming. She lines up dish after dish, and the aroma floats through the house.  All 4 of my uncles rumble up the stairs passing mom, highly focused on the delicious presentation steaming away at the table.
                    
But my grandfather, Mr. Oscar, The Boss...whom I called Nana, carries me away in my laughing state to the veranda.

The clip clop of hooves, the smell of diesel in the open air. Palm trees peak over terra cotta roofs and in the distance I see Edward carrying a sack of rice on his head and a bucket of blue crabs in his hand.

Nana made me a special bench that I sat on as we watched together; a Georgetown morning come to life.

I was the first one after all. A seat that's just for me.

Then appeared a mystery.

A bowl. A stainless steel one polished to shine and entice.

"Eh boss! Boss! Where we keep de 3/4 inch bolts? I find de nut dem but no bolts!"
The voice of Uncle Tarquin echoed up to him over the concrete.
"Check the back store room!"

The banter over and under the veranda still didn't get me to take my eyes off that bowl he held so firmly in his hands. His fingers were chubby, I looked at mine, tiny and pale.

What's in it? Is it for me? What could it be?

He sits in his wicker chair as if it were a throne and he like a King. His hard hands grip mine with grace and finally I managed to sneak a peak...the contents of this mysterious bowl.

"Come. Let me show you how to eat and enjoy!" He bellows in his deep voice.
There they were, mangoes small and leathery. With beauty marks of black and rosy pink cheeks.

He placed the ripe fruit in my hands, as he held one of his own.

"Do like what I do," he said.  Holding the mango and bringing it to his lips. He bit a hole into the greenish yellow flesh and tore it with his mouth.  I did the same and the bitter skin left a tingle on my tongue.

Slowly he tore the skin with his fingers, "But don't pull it all off, leave enough to hold, baby..."

The smell was rich and sweet. As florescent orange as the sun, the daunting task of eating this mango is too complicated. How? Where do I start?

He smiles, then laughs! His belly shakes as he shows his toothy grin from ear to ear. He watches on in amusement. Blushing again, I wipe my face with the back of my arm as the juice drips down my chin and onto my blue and white sleeper.

"I don't know how..." I say "Cut it for me?" I ask.  Holding up the mushy, man-handled mango - batting my eye lashes.

"Eh!" He bellows! I jump in my seat.
"Learn to eat it the right way! Come now, try!"

Frustrated.  I don't care! So I bite down. I tear in and sink my teeth into this golden fruit.  Feeling my teeth hit the stone in the middle I hold on for dear life.  I just may lose this fruit if I don't!

Chewing away, slurping up the pulp while licking my fingers. My cheeks are sticky, and the stringy pieces of fleshy fruit catch my teeth and tongue.  Like shrapnel after a grenade going off, strewed bits of green and yellow peel lay on the concrete floor of the balcony.  I flick the skin off my fingers, and it lands on my toe. It is then I notice my pj's are no longer the same colour as when I woke up that morning.

An orange abstract painting on my one perfectly clean jammies.

I look up and see mom watching me through the rot-iron gate of the veranda. Gently smiling. 

I then see him neatly devour his fruit with not so much as a lost drop. He pears up and grins as he pulls out his handkerchief. Wiping my chin, fingers, hands and my toe. Then lifting me to sit on his lap to complete mission: clean-up.

I hear the clattering of plates, men talking loudly, then sharply interrupted by a honk from the lorry in the street.

He carries me through the house once again and puts me down in front of that cherry wood table where my uncles and father sit. My smile wide, mango in one hand, and yellow handkerchief in the other. A sense of victory. I did it.  I ate my first mango. Properly.

He sits at the head of the table, joining his sons and begins to eat from the spread in front of him, laughing and chuckling.

Nanny picks me up, holds me over the sink and washes my face. Sitting in her lap she feeds me breakfast...so begins my day...

So goes my Georgetown Morning

xo,

A Girl Who Likes to Cook & Loves to Eat - age 5 and a half